Over the half way

I really haven't updated my blog for a while. Naughty. Pregnancy exhaustion has really taken it's toll on me. Now at 22 weeks I'm finally starting to get bit more energy. Still cannot stay awake in front of telly past 9 pm.

Emotionally I'm feeling really good. I'm very content and happy. I cannot believe that I've come so far with the pregnancy and my little precious boy is healthy according to the 20 week scan. I feel I'm even more close to my husband and seem to falling in love with him more and more all the time... hormones...

My little lad is really kicking in my belly. Still doesn't seem to have set patterns. My husband has been able to feel the movements for couple of weeks and few days ago I started to SEE my belly moving. Very weird and alien like but I'm absolutely over the moon.

I've gained so far (since the end of 1st trimester) 6 kg. The weight is mainly my belly and my "love handles" are blooming...

I've started to buy bits and pieces for the baby. I've practically have got all the clothes every baby book recommend for the first 6 weeks. Cute little outfits that make even my "oh so controlled British husband" say awww :)

I wanna eat (I wish it was rock...)

It feels like a miracle has happened. As soon as 12 weeks came on Saturday my sickness has decreased loads and my body is just wanting food, food and food. All the time! My weight has gone down 2.5 kg within the first trimester so hopefully it's going up soon. I'm trying to eat well, 5 portions of fruit and veggies every day...and then I'm gassy. Sorry for too much information, but hey, I'm pregnant!

I'm still avoiding to start to wear maternity clothes but I don't think I can fight very much longer. Luckily I've got few pairs of trousers from my mate so I don't have to spend ridiculous amount of money for maternity clothes.
Belly on it's full glory

Approaching the Safe Zone

I had a dream few days ago that I had a miscarriage. Then I started to get these really uncomfortable aches in my groins and every now and again in my abdomen on Tuesday. Yesterday it seemed that every time I suddenly moved, I had sharp pains. COMPLETE PANIC!!! I phoned my midwife yesterday and she was trying to assure me that it's probably just pains from uterus growing. Not good enough. So, I insisted (and yes, told a little white lie) to have another scan this morning. EVERYTHING IS ABSOLUTELY FINE! Thank god.

Baby is actually measuring 11 weeks and 5 days (the baby wasn't fully stretched in this scan photo I got to take with me). The baby was moving loads and did little jumps every now and again. As you can imagine, I'm over the moon (as is my husband).

So, it seems we are approaching the "safe zone" fast. Looks like, I have to get used to the idea that we actually are having a baby in October. Sweet, sweet, sweet!

Shake that jelly-belly

Ten weeks! Nausea seems to worse than ever before. I'm constantly tired. The joy of being pregnant!

Never been much of a slim girl but my belly is already HUGE...just due to the fact that I'm bloated...
6 weeks

10 weeks

Amazing day

I had another scan and I ended having tears in my eyes. The baby was fine and moving! S/he was a proper little human being and was stretching her/his legs and waiving to me. I think this is the most amazing thing ever. The fertility consultant was very pleased and said the pregnancy looks healthy. Now after 2 healthy looking scan he said chance of miscarriage has dropped to only 5%. I am so chuffed!

First scan

I had first scan on Thursday. I met the fertility consultant for the first time, which was nice. Apparently everything was fine and looking healthy. I saw the little fetal pole and the foetus was measuring 7weeks and 2 days (+/-5 days).

In a way I'm relieved that I'm over 7 weeks as both previous miscarriages have happened at 6 weeks. But then again, I'm absolutely dreading all of this. I'm so convinced that I'll never see a day, that I'll have a child.

Since the scan, I've bee having quite annoying stomach pains on and off: just by my hips and occasionally on my lower tummy. Some definitely have been just wind but otherwise, I've never had these before. I'm so scared that these are signs of miscarriage, but they could also be just pains of uterus growing. Who knows.

I've got another scan in 1,5 weeks time and I just think it's not gonna be good news, even if I'm still feeling so sick and boobs are hurting. I've got sense of smell like a werewolf, which is not particularly nice, when everything turns my stomach. I just hope, this time it's gonna have happy ending. Surely, I deserve it! Also, this time I'm on THREE medications to prevent miscarriage to happen... Somehow, I just always have bad luck on my side...

Symptoms causing dreading

I should be now 7 weeks. I'm feeling so unbelievably tired! Nausea comes and goes. Even thought of food, turns my stomach. I don't fancy anything to eat. Boobs are stills sore and my stomach is bloated. I would be embracing all this symptoms, if I could now for sure that the pregnancy will continue! Now I just feel miserable. No bleeding so far or signs of miscarriage as yet. Unfortunately, I'm feeling way too hopeful. First scan on Thursday. We'll see what that shows. I'm dreading it.