First scan

I had first scan on Thursday. I met the fertility consultant for the first time, which was nice. Apparently everything was fine and looking healthy. I saw the little fetal pole and the foetus was measuring 7weeks and 2 days (+/-5 days).

In a way I'm relieved that I'm over 7 weeks as both previous miscarriages have happened at 6 weeks. But then again, I'm absolutely dreading all of this. I'm so convinced that I'll never see a day, that I'll have a child.

Since the scan, I've bee having quite annoying stomach pains on and off: just by my hips and occasionally on my lower tummy. Some definitely have been just wind but otherwise, I've never had these before. I'm so scared that these are signs of miscarriage, but they could also be just pains of uterus growing. Who knows.

I've got another scan in 1,5 weeks time and I just think it's not gonna be good news, even if I'm still feeling so sick and boobs are hurting. I've got sense of smell like a werewolf, which is not particularly nice, when everything turns my stomach. I just hope, this time it's gonna have happy ending. Surely, I deserve it! Also, this time I'm on THREE medications to prevent miscarriage to happen... Somehow, I just always have bad luck on my side...