Huge times two

I'm feeling horrendously nauseous. My belly is also massive and I really haven't been eating much in last few weeks at all. Well, I eat quite a bit of crisps 'cause that's only thing I fancy (due to sickness) but I shouldn't gain SUCH a lot of weight. Maybe there are TWO conceived eggs in me (I still don't like to use the work pregnancy. It's too positive in case this will end up in misery)

I've been on progesterone pessaries now for 4 days and I think they are working. My boobs are sore and my nipples...well are massive (sorry for too much information). I starting to feel hopeful but then again...there is the feeling in the background telling me that this also will end to miscarriage. There is nothing more that I can do. I'm taking aspirin (75mg), Folic Acid (5mg, usual dosage is 400 micrograms) and progesterone.

If I'll miscarry also this one, I'm not sure whether I'm willing to go through this again. I did say to my husband that we'll keep on going until end of October but I'm not sure whether even that's bit too much. Going through all these symptoms would be absolutely fine, if I'd know there will be a cute reward in the end. But going through for nothing is just too much.