Symptoms causing dreading

I should be now 7 weeks. I'm feeling so unbelievably tired! Nausea comes and goes. Even thought of food, turns my stomach. I don't fancy anything to eat. Boobs are stills sore and my stomach is bloated. I would be embracing all this symptoms, if I could now for sure that the pregnancy will continue! Now I just feel miserable. No bleeding so far or signs of miscarriage as yet. Unfortunately, I'm feeling way too hopeful. First scan on Thursday. We'll see what that shows. I'm dreading it.

Huge times two

I'm feeling horrendously nauseous. My belly is also massive and I really haven't been eating much in last few weeks at all. Well, I eat quite a bit of crisps 'cause that's only thing I fancy (due to sickness) but I shouldn't gain SUCH a lot of weight. Maybe there are TWO conceived eggs in me (I still don't like to use the work pregnancy. It's too positive in case this will end up in misery)

I've been on progesterone pessaries now for 4 days and I think they are working. My boobs are sore and my nipples...well are massive (sorry for too much information). I starting to feel hopeful but then again...there is the feeling in the background telling me that this also will end to miscarriage. There is nothing more that I can do. I'm taking aspirin (75mg), Folic Acid (5mg, usual dosage is 400 micrograms) and progesterone.

If I'll miscarry also this one, I'm not sure whether I'm willing to go through this again. I did say to my husband that we'll keep on going until end of October but I'm not sure whether even that's bit too much. Going through all these symptoms would be absolutely fine, if I'd know there will be a cute reward in the end. But going through for nothing is just too much.

Dropped

Progesterone levels had dropped from 80's to 66. I started today progesterone pessary 400 mg twice a day for 3 weeks. It's gooey business. I've given up hope more or less that this pregnancy continues. I've got my scan in two and 1/2 weeks and I'm dreading it.

I'm feeling nauseous and haven't got much energy. Emotions are going up and down. Don't know whether that's actually related to the pregnancy or just being stressed over it all.

It's not exciting. Just scary.

I need to have bloods done for progesterone levels tomorrow. I'm off sick. Having the worst cold ever, even if it's getting bit better now. I couldn't take anything for it as majority of medicines aren't recommended for the pregnant ones.

My boobs are really sore, I'm bloated (very gassy) and feeling quite sick especially in the evening. Still, I'm feeling quite pessimistic about it all. I keep talking about having children to my husband, and not even taking into consideration that we might have one in the autumn. Of course, with our recurrent bad, bad luck - we will not. Why did thing, that's suppose to be so exciting and happy, became so horrendously scary?

Results of agony

Friday bloods:
HCG - 55
Progesterone - 70ish

Monday bloods:
HCG - 212
Progesterone - 87

It's going the right direction at the moment. I don't wanna get my hopes up, even if they are lifting their little heads already. I hope next 2 months are going to be whizzing past and everything will be fine.

I've got first week on March off from work. That'll be 8 weeks. Same, when I had the last miscarriage. You see, already time off for another D&C, so I don't have to be off sick. Happiest time of life? Expecting? Ha. Mental agony, every moment of it. Just filled with nothing but fear. I don't even use the word "pregnancy". I'm just carrying a conceived egg. How so un-romantic.